bittersweet...

they call it a breastfeeding journey or relationship.  and that is because it comes with its highs and lows like any relationship.  and today was a bittersweet one for me.  i gave ryder his first bottle of formula since he was in the hospital with jaundice before my milk came in. 

due to hormones and being sick my supply has taken a dip.  hopefully one i will recover from, but i gotta feed the moose!  i felt like he was getting frustrated nursing and i can tell that my output is not where it should be, so i will do what it takes to keep him satisfied. 

i am beyond proud and thrilled that we have made it to 6 months exclusively breastfed.  a goal that i never thought possible after what i went through with bowie.  i am proud that he is thriving, healthy and growing all while solely being nourished from my body.

if you remember what i went through with bowie, you must know how important it is to me and know i am determined to get my supply back to where it should be so i can feed my baby without supplementation.  but in the meantime, i will do whatever i have to do to keep his belly full, after all FED IS BEST! 

this is face after chugging a 8 ounce bottle of formula!  his smile says it all!