and then eventually the test line would pop up before the control line and was darker than the control line, at this point, it started to sink in that i am pregnant...again! in fact this will be my 5th pregnancy!
it feels like not that long ago that we had to deal with our miscarriage. my head was very practical about it, but it took a lot longer for my heart to heal. in fact, longer than i thought or expected, and i don't know if it ever will. it was our 3rd miscarriage, but our first after bowie. my 2 previous miscarriages were very early on, but this one was different and undetected which really made for a mind game. i was days away from being out of my 1st trimester when we got the sad news, so we both took it pretty hard.
having just recently dealt with that, you can imagine how reluctant we are to get overly excited as well as spill the beans to anyone. this will be particularly hard since the holidays are coming up and we will be seeing family. but i hope everyone can understand how we would feel hesitant to share. we want to have a couple of doctors appointments first and probably get through our first trimester. this will be around christmas time, so it may make for a great surprise!
aside from all those mixed emotions, i am feeling good, just raging hormones! i don't have any pregnancy symptoms yet, feeling pretty normal these days. as i have done before, i will continue with my weekly updates and start belly pics!
week 6 milestones:
~baby has a 2 chambered heart
~heart starts beating after day 21 of conception
~spinal cord is forming
~growing a thin layer of skin
~baby is the size of a grain of rice
Makes me cry with happiness mostly but also for the loss and all that the two of you have been through. Got my fingers crossed but I think this one's sticking like glue!
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